Transformers star Shia LaBeouf thought of ending his life after being brutally shamed in sex battery case: 'I had a gun on the table'
Transformers star Shia LaBeouf has been in the news after ex-girlfriend and singer FKA Twigs filed a complaint against him for sexual assault, battery and emotional distress. They dated for less than a year before breaking up in May 2019. Although Shia denied all the accusations, she apologized for her misbehavior. The Hollywood actor has now opened up about committing suicide after being brutally shamed, leading to the lowest point in his life.
In a crossroads conversation with Bishop Robert Barron, Shia confirmed that he is now a Catholic and how his connection to the religion saved him. “I had a gun on the table. I was out of here. When all this happened I didn’t want to live anymore. The kind of shame I’ve never experienced before, the kind of shame that makes you forget how to breathe. You don’t know where to go. You can’t go out there and be like a taco,” the actor-producer told Hollywood News.
“I no longer wanted to be an actor and my life was in complete disarray. I had hurt a lot of people and I felt deep shame and deep guilt,” LaBeouf acknowledged, before adding, “But I also had this deep desire to hang on.”
Calling his past actions “disgusting” and “corrupt,” the Constantine actor said he didn’t feel worthy to explore religion, but felt “invited” to “go” when he read the gospel. But it wasn’t until he met others who had been through similar struggles that he was able to fully embrace religion.
“It was seeing other people who had sinned beyond anything, I was also finding the concept in Christ that made me feel like, ‘Okay, this gives me hope.’ I started hearing the experiences of other corrupt people who had gotten into this and it made me feel like I had permission,” he explained.
Although his mother is Jewish and his father is Christian, LaBeouf says he never felt a strong attachment to a particular religion until now. “I didn’t know he was baptized. I was baptized earlier in my life and I didn’t even remember,” he tells the baron. “My uncle had me baptized in the (triangular sutra),” he said.
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